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September 06 OK.... I have been beaten but I refuse to give upHow many months it has been not blogging and not working toward a goal. Oh telling myself I am going to start tomorrow. Tomorrow never comes but one thing is for sure those pounds sneak right back up on you. I am back up to 254, bummer but it is my own fault. I am making a pact with myself. Back to eating, exercising, and enjoying life. Pat and I have had a great summer. We bought some peddle bikes and we rode them basically everywhere we could. We were conserving fuel, saving money, and exercising. Bike riding is soooo much fun! I love it, but I hurt my back about a month ago and that basically put me back so many months. Basically I gave up and started eating, my will power diminished. I am done eating poorly. I don't want to have a "cheat day" that turns into a week or two of eating everything. I am so happy Biggest Loser is starting in 11 days!!! Motivation from that show is amazing and it is awesome to see the changes I make by watching the show. If only it could be on 52 weeks per year! Well, I am planning on a bike ride tomorrow to the farmer's market to check out some of the local produce. I can get my cardio out of the way bright and early and then focus my energy on the other things I need to accomplish this weekend. I am going to try to get better at blogging, if for nothing else to help my own psyche. I feel like a failure. How disappointed Bob and Jillian would be to see how far I fell off the wagon. How frustrated I am to feel my clothes tight on me, AGAIN! So, the plan I have is to start journaling my eating and exercising here daily, putting my thoughts and feelings down so maybe I can get things off my mind, clear my conscience so I don't eat my sorrows, happiness, or blah days away!
On a happier and more upbeat note, Pat and I will be celebrating our 7th wedding anniversary on Monday. WOW! Seven years, though not 20 or 30, still a great accomplishment for both of us. He is such a good man, loving, and FUN to be around. Happy Anniversary Baby! You truly are my knight in shining armour!!!! We went to Red Rocks to the 3 Doors Down concert on Tuesday.... AWESOME!!!!! That is all I can say about that :o) We had so much fun, definitely a place to go to a concert if you ever get the chance!!!!! The boys are both on Varsity Football this year! GO CATS!!!! I am so proud of them. It is amazing how fast they grow up. We have a junior and a sophomore and then our daughter is going to be the BIG 20... I cannot believe I have a 20 year old daughter... is that crazy or what? I also am almost finished with school.... Nov 24, 2008 I will receive my BSHA.... OH MY!!!! It is almost surreal! But a HUGE accomplishment, none the less. I hope that one day I can feel just as accomplished getting to my goal weight. It is a long hard road, but so was going to school fulltime and trying to be a good mom and wife. I think I may have failed the past two years on the good mom and wife, but I did the best I could I think. Trying to find a way to be successful at this life long struggle, just like most.
Well, I look forward to this new weightloss challenge. I look at it as new because I cannot dwell on the past.
Determined to succeed!
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