As difficult as it is to believe that statement... it is true. We are trying to get back on track. Emotional eating is an evil creature. Some days it is easy to say, "NO" and mean it. There are other days when it is just better to eat the bad food and feel guilty about it later. This past weekend was a good weekend for the most part. Our daughter came home for the weekend, it was so good to see her, and hard to let her go when she had to leave on Monday. I had taken off Friday and Monday, so I got to spend some extra time with her. It was nice to have her here just to hang out with. The rollercoaster ride we took was due to extended family issues. We also had some drama at the house.  Some one tried to break into our house... while we were in it... it was a scary prospect, but we have gotten through it and are more careful each night before we go to bed.

 

I have to say, it is an eye opening experience to realize just how difficult it is to stay the course. I think about what I m going to eat, plan out a daily menu and sometimes, well most times, I figure out a few days in advance. I am really liking oatmeal for breakfast.  I was reading an article on smoothies and think I will try one this week. I think this may help me get over the need for a shake, it will be cold and smooth and yummy.  I am on day number three of working out.  I have averaged about 3 1/2 miles per day.  I am shooting for 15 miles or more for this week. I don't know if many people go through daily bouts of wavering motivation. Like the other day, all I could think about was a double cheese burger.  How good it would taste, how much I would hate the fact that I would gain weight, water weight if nothing else. But it may be worth it.  I was reading something on Kae from the Biggest Loser and she said something that really made sense to me. "Is it worth the amount of working out you will have to do if you eat it?"  There are not many things out there I can honestly say are "worth" the amount of exercise I will have to do to make up for the extra calories.

 

Pat is doing good. I know he has felt he is not doing well, but he is so strong and many times more motivated then I could ever think to be.  He has been working his butt off... there is a reason for this. We are planning a trip to Hawaii or the Bahamas in January 2009. We both want to look good in our bathing suits, LOL.  The kids are going with us, it should be really fun. Another motivating factor, for me, is my sister's wedding in August. I would like to feel more comfortable in my skin. To do this I need to continue my "slow and steady" weight loss. As many know it is easier said then done. We all love food, to some food has this hold on you that is difficult to let go. I am a food-aholic. I admit it. I can attest that food can cause me to have an anxiety attack, food can help me feel good for only a moment, food is something I eat to energize myself, food will make me stronger just as it could make me weaker. The choices I make, in regards to food, are what make me what I am. Making better choices leaves me feeling full longer, helps my body work better and use my energy stores to help me lose this excessive weight. I may fall off the mountain but I will end up climbing back up to the top and dancing around at my accomplishment. I have accomplished so much since January 1, 2008. Prior to that date I was having difficulty going up the stairs (13 of them), I could eat a large meal from any fastfood place and a large ice cream dessert without thinking twice about it. I can now get on the new treadmill or the elliptical and go at least 60 minutes if not more. I am no longer winded to walk up the stairs or walk out to my car from my office. I prefer, on most days, to have a piece of fruit or some sf/ff pudding for dessert. I drink at least 96 oz of water a day. I don't drink as much soda as I once did. I love to cook things that are healthy for my family. My accomplishments outweigh any joy I get out of eating poorly. I can splurge once in awhile but need to focus on the race to a longer, more healthy life. More time to spend growing old with the man I love and the kids we have raised. Weight loss is only one element of who I am, currently it is a large portion of my day. But in time, I know this too shall pass and I can look back on this journey as one where I learned so much about me, my strengths, and my weakness'.  

 

Biggest Loser was AMAZING!!!  Way to go ladies. I was not at all surprised to see Dan go. I was surprised he moved to Los Angeles.  I hope he realizes his dream... that would be cool for him.  I could not believe Ali lost 6 pounds  she is the woman!  Kelly is doing well, also.  I am not sure who I am rooting for, definitely not any of the blue team members at this point in time. Well, I should finish this so I can do something else with my evening, LOL.  I already worked out so stop thinking I am wasting my time blogging instead of cardio, LOL. Talk to ya later!!!